TO ALL MY LADIESSSSSSS
Hi ya'll!! I just wanted to take a moment to brag about the amazing community of girls and women God has placed in my life. This year Valentine's day took place on the Friday right before break. So what better way to kick off break than by a GALentine's party with some of my ladiessss!! So on February 14th, 2020 thirteen girls made their way over to my house : ) And we partayyyyed!! Okay, so we watched To All The Boys I Loved Before P.S. I Still Love You, ate a billion brownies, and talked for hours but it was still the best night. And you best bet the next morning four of us were dancing our booties off to All The Single Ladies and singing our hearts out to Frozen 2 Karaoke while doing each others makeup and hair. These past few nights of reflection and time with some of my favorite gal pals has made me realized how truly blessed I am. This time last year I was beginning to struggle really hard with friendships. On the outside it may have seemed like I had a ton of friends and I was always happy. But in reality I felt like I was running a never ending race, pouring all my energy into seeking out certain people's attention and love and feeling empty and alone as a result. I let the truth that God fills me up and defines me slip through my fingers. Instead I put all my worth in how I perceived others thoughts and actions towards me. Plenty of you reading this were probably amazing friends to me last year. But in the place my heart was at...it didn't matter. Because I perceived all the Instagram photos of people doing things together and not inviting me as ME not being a good enough friend.
When in reality that...is a big fat lie.
Over the summer many of you know I went with a group from my Church's youth group to the amazing Life Conference in Florida. One of the speakers, Megan Marshman (...I LOVE her and HIGHLY recommend you go listen to her stuff), used a cup illustration that has really stuck with me. She said when we hold it out horizontally we are unable to get much water in there. To fill it up. But when we turn it up, facing God, vertically, the way it was designed to be, it is like Niagara Falls rushing in and overflowing. In the same way, when we turn our eyes and hearts to Jesus, as we are designed to do, we are filled to overflowing. But when we tilt our cup out to everyone else, they are not going to fill us up the way God is going to. We are left feeling empty.
I had been turning my cup out to everyone else.
I needed to turn my cup up to Jesus.
So since this conference I have tried to implement this mentality into my life. Looking back, I have seen tremendous growth. I have learned how to set boundaries when needed. I have learned how to love others who don't know how to offer back the same type of love. And when I don't expect or need it from them, it became a much healthier relationship. I learned who to be extra intentional with, and who God has placed in my life who does love me well in the ways I need to be loved. God has shown me so much love through these people. I am learning how to keep God as my #1, to turn to him first, and to rely on him to fill me up and love me in the way no one else can. Aaaaaaannnnddddd...now that my focus has shifted I am able to see the many amazing women God has placed in my life.
What I am getting at, is that I am so incredibly thankful for each and every one of you. To my "sisters" I am thankful for the unique role each of you play in my life. I am thankful for those of you who have come back in to my life in new, beautiful ways this year. I am thankful for how I continue to grow closer to you all. I am thankful that next year when I go away to college I know I have girls back home to visit, to write, and to video chat with. I am thankful you all make me laugh. I am thankful for how you build each other up, including me. I am thankful for how you remind me of the truth. How some of you are willing to slap me in the face and call me out on my stuff. I am thankful for your smiles. Each and every one of your unique, absolutely beautiful smiles. I am thankful for how we are learning each and every day how to love each other better. And I am so thankful to God for working in my heart, and for bringing in such incredible women into my life this year, who genuinely value and love me so so stinkin well. And who I love so so so so sooooo much too.
And to all the mamas, aunties, and grandma's in my life. All you women who God has gifted me with, to teach me, to guide me, to love me, to pray for me. Man oh MAN am I grateful for you. Agh! I literally can not describe what amazing women God has placed in my life as role models. I hope you all know who you are. You genuinely are like family to me. When I call you my aunties, or my mom, or I give you the giant bear hugs a girl gives her Grandma, I hope you know how much I love you, and how influential you have been to me. And how I really have considered you family.
And to my actual, biological family. My sisters and my mama. My Mimi and Grandma. My Aunty Suzy, Aunty Tiffy, Emma, and allll the cousins and such : )Thank you for loving me so well. You have invested in me, and loved me with such patience, grace, and humility. We may argue at times. We may find ourselves angry with each other. But in the end we love one another. Thank you Jesus for how you have brought us as a family closer together in love. I pray God will continues to help us grow as a family and to grow in our relationship with one another.
To all my ladies out there, my hype women, my mentors, my friends, my aunts, my second/third "moms", my sisters...thank you so so much. From the bottom of my heart I love you. Happy late Galentines day!! Sending lots of hugs and love your way!!
xoxo
Sincerely,
Sophi : )
When in reality that...is a big fat lie.
Over the summer many of you know I went with a group from my Church's youth group to the amazing Life Conference in Florida. One of the speakers, Megan Marshman (...I LOVE her and HIGHLY recommend you go listen to her stuff), used a cup illustration that has really stuck with me. She said when we hold it out horizontally we are unable to get much water in there. To fill it up. But when we turn it up, facing God, vertically, the way it was designed to be, it is like Niagara Falls rushing in and overflowing. In the same way, when we turn our eyes and hearts to Jesus, as we are designed to do, we are filled to overflowing. But when we tilt our cup out to everyone else, they are not going to fill us up the way God is going to. We are left feeling empty.
I had been turning my cup out to everyone else.
I needed to turn my cup up to Jesus.
So since this conference I have tried to implement this mentality into my life. Looking back, I have seen tremendous growth. I have learned how to set boundaries when needed. I have learned how to love others who don't know how to offer back the same type of love. And when I don't expect or need it from them, it became a much healthier relationship. I learned who to be extra intentional with, and who God has placed in my life who does love me well in the ways I need to be loved. God has shown me so much love through these people. I am learning how to keep God as my #1, to turn to him first, and to rely on him to fill me up and love me in the way no one else can. Aaaaaaannnnddddd...now that my focus has shifted I am able to see the many amazing women God has placed in my life.
What I am getting at, is that I am so incredibly thankful for each and every one of you. To my "sisters" I am thankful for the unique role each of you play in my life. I am thankful for those of you who have come back in to my life in new, beautiful ways this year. I am thankful for how I continue to grow closer to you all. I am thankful that next year when I go away to college I know I have girls back home to visit, to write, and to video chat with. I am thankful you all make me laugh. I am thankful for how you build each other up, including me. I am thankful for how you remind me of the truth. How some of you are willing to slap me in the face and call me out on my stuff. I am thankful for your smiles. Each and every one of your unique, absolutely beautiful smiles. I am thankful for how we are learning each and every day how to love each other better. And I am so thankful to God for working in my heart, and for bringing in such incredible women into my life this year, who genuinely value and love me so so stinkin well. And who I love so so so so sooooo much too.
And to all the mamas, aunties, and grandma's in my life. All you women who God has gifted me with, to teach me, to guide me, to love me, to pray for me. Man oh MAN am I grateful for you. Agh! I literally can not describe what amazing women God has placed in my life as role models. I hope you all know who you are. You genuinely are like family to me. When I call you my aunties, or my mom, or I give you the giant bear hugs a girl gives her Grandma, I hope you know how much I love you, and how influential you have been to me. And how I really have considered you family.
And to my actual, biological family. My sisters and my mama. My Mimi and Grandma. My Aunty Suzy, Aunty Tiffy, Emma, and allll the cousins and such : )Thank you for loving me so well. You have invested in me, and loved me with such patience, grace, and humility. We may argue at times. We may find ourselves angry with each other. But in the end we love one another. Thank you Jesus for how you have brought us as a family closer together in love. I pray God will continues to help us grow as a family and to grow in our relationship with one another.
To all my ladies out there, my hype women, my mentors, my friends, my aunts, my second/third "moms", my sisters...thank you so so much. From the bottom of my heart I love you. Happy late Galentines day!! Sending lots of hugs and love your way!!
xoxo
Sincerely,
Sophi : )
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